Friday, December 14, 2012

Forevermore

That desperation in one’s heart
Can cause one to be set apart.
It can consume one’s soul in dark despair
Going to a place with no hope of repair.
Pain is tearing you apart with no hope of salvation;
You’ve gone to a place where Death is one’s only motivation.
Forevermore.

Anger wracks your body in tremors and waves.
Uncontrollable because there is no one to give the love you so crave.
Red, hot, boiling, simmering,
It’s clouding your vision, obstructing your view,
Causing you to regret old wounds anew.
It causes your eyes to turn red, as those of the Devil.
Now there is no hope, no hope, for your anger to level.
Forevermore.

Sobs of despair, of pain, and of fury
Wrack your body but are concealed in a hurry.
The sadness that holds you tight in its grip
Drives you to madness, a one way trip.
A small black fire that starts as a flame of anger,
Turns into a bigger flame of loathing fueled by pain.
It turns to a blaze of fiery despair
Like an animal caged, causing the black fire to flare.
Trapped, with no way out of this shadowy despair.
Forevermore.

When other’s suffering does not suffice,
You turn to the final solution, one easy, one nice.
The blade kisses your skin, so softly, easily
Forming a thin line of bright, crimson, and red.
Pain stabs at you but, “No! I must have more!”
The next time the blade slices, much more deeply than before,
But that matters not to you: you are empty, inane.
Forevermore.

Blood pools at your feet, a growing pool of life.
Warm, sticky, thick, it slides down to drip…drip….
“One more cut and I am done,” say you,
Right before the knife drops, splashing the pool.
You fall to the floor, lying there, still.
As your life force leaves you and your lungs struggle to fill.
Forevermore.

The ghost of a smile crosses your pale, bloodless lips.
As the warm, sticky thick blood continuously drips.
The pain and loathing for you will soon cease.
And you will be resting with Death, eternally at peace.
Forevermore.



Gabby

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Racism


Black, white, yellow, and caramel
People see and try to tell
Who they are based on their skin
regardless of their own personal sins.

Teasing based on color
Turns to bullying,
But some can’t see
Just how far their little “playing” goes,
Especially when cutting
Is a “solution” to drown sorrows.

Hoping, looking, praying, crying out,
But no one seems to hear their shouts:
“Why can’t I be perfect?
                Why can’t I be the best?
                                Why can I not pass this test?”
All this happens because people
Think words don’t hurt,
But they ought to think that
Before insults they blurt.

Suicide, cutting, drugs and drinking
Side effects of
No one thinking,
“Color of your skin seems to matter.”
Why should it when no one is perfect;
No one is truly one-hundred percent.
Anyone who says otherwise,
Truly is not worth it. 



Gabby

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Endurance


I don’t know what I expected
Some sign of recognition.
Maybe it was too much to hope for,
I got carried away with my imagination,

After eleven years of hoping against hope,
I suppose the result was
Something to be expected by all,
But me.

My heart swells with pain
Because I wanted something more.
I wanted something I knew
Deep down, I knew I couldn't have.

I already know I've been through
Obstacles maybe not even faced
By people older than I,
But it doesn't stem the tears
When I break down and cry.

I’ve crossed my heart and
Hope to die so many times,
I can hardly keep count.
I’ve promised myself I wouldn’t
Let petty obstacles get to
where it hurts.
But each time, I
Break that promise,
And it hurts anew.

I've tried letting it all go
Many times before,
But it seems as though
 My heart is being ignored
by my conscience.

Do I purposefully allow
Myself to be hurt
Like this?
I don’t know
But I do know
I’m getting sick of this cycle.

I've heard the songs,
The poems and ballads,
About how
“What doesn't kill you makes you stronger,”
I know that it is true, but there are times I tell
I can’t take this
For that much longer.

I am not suicidal.
I am not a coward.
I am not going to kill myself.
I am not going to let this break me.

I just want this pain to end.
Is that too much to ask?


Written: Sunday November 4, 2012



Gabby

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Diamonds

Diamonds are made from coal,
its how they start out.

Yet I believe that when we are born,
Diamonds are what we are about.

Pressure and heat
Turn coal into a crystal,
Yet us as humans,
The opposite is what is mystical.

When we are born,
As babies so tiny,
Our auras are bright,
Clear, white, and shiny.

It’s as we grow older that the auras solidifies,
It’s as we grow older that who we are is truly tried.

When pressure and heat
Become too much,
Our armor cracks
And we are hot to the touch.

Sometime we might cool,
Like a tropical breeze
Other times we will erupt,
Like a volcano undersea.

It’s these small actions
that define who we are,
It’s these small actions
Which illuminate our mars.

Written: Tuesday, October 30 2012

Monday, October 29, 2012

As Long as You Love M

As long as you love me,
I will be whole.
As long as you love me
I will have somewhere to go.
As long as you love me,
I will be sane.
As long as you love me
I will ignore any pain.

Your love is like a fountain,
poring forth water,
gently streaming down
like the love for a daughter.
Caress me sweet,,
hold me tight,
Don't let me go,
Not today nor this night.
The stars in the sky
are plentiful, my love.
But are they equal to
that of a turtle dove?
You claim to love me, as much as any man
could love a woman.
So is it to much to ask
for you to prove it?


As long as you love me,
I will be whole.
As long as you love me
I will have somewhere to go.
As long as you love me,
I will be sane.
As long as you love me
I will ignore any pain.

Gabby

Monday, October 22, 2012

Do Not Go Gentle into that Good Night

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on that sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light. 



Gabby

Monday, September 17, 2012

Silence

Tears behind my eyes
But publicly I hide.
Tears I can't release.
Until my shaking cease.
Trembling alone in my room
Trying to stop the tears
that flow freely down my face.
Crying, racking, painful sobs
are better you know,
because all see your pain.
Crying, shaking, silently,
is the worst
because no one hears
at all.


Written: Wednesday, August 29, 2012


Gabby